The musings of a juggling mother

Rants & raves about life as a woman today, juggling work, home, kids, family, life the universe & everything.

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Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Day 1

well, I think i passed. A good pass on the first exam, and a scrape through on the second. Ho Hum.

Just one more day to go - that is the hardest one though.

And I've got a blister on my finger from spending so man ours writing with a pen, on paper. Who does THAT any more?


Sunday, May 11, 2008

I am

Revising for my exams next Wednesday and Thursday
cleaning the house out
Doing a car boot sale
taking the kids to school, dancing, swimming
starting at the CAB on Thursday
attending 1st session of fostering course on Wenesday
Going to work
Playing with th kids
enjoying the sunshine

NOW EVERYONE STOP BLOODY MOANING that I haven't updated my blog. My life is just continuing. It's very busy, but nothing much is happening at the moment. I'll be back after the exams.....

Friday, May 02, 2008

I am so glad I don't live in London any more

If the Evening Standard is right and Boris has won. I'm no great fan of Ken the man, but Ken the politician has improved Londoners lives twice now, both times against the will of the ruling politicians. Whereas Boris the man may be funny on TV, Boris the politician is as scary a prospect as possible in today's Britain. Anti-Europe, anti-immigration, anti-welfare state, pro-imperialism, pro-hunting, pro-lbertarianism, i dread to think what his legacy wil be to a city of 14 million people.

I offer, for your opinion, some of Boris' most well know quotes:

The proposed ban on incitement to “religious hatred” make no sense unless it involves a ban on the Koran itself.
Daily Telegraph

Both the minimum wage and the Social Charter would palpably destroy jobs.
Lend Me Your Ears

That is the best case for Bush; that, among other things, he liberated Iraq. It is good enough for me.
Daily Telegraph

I can't remember what my line on drugs is. What's my line on drugs?
"The Genelection Game", Sunday Mirror,

Voting Tory will cause your wife to have bigger breasts and increase your chances of owning a BMW M3.
Said in April 2005 during the general election

And finally, from a man who knows him well....
He may seem like a lovable buffoon but you know he wouldn't hesitate to line you all up against a wall and have you shot.
Jeremy Hardy on Radio 4.

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Thursday, May 01, 2008

to work or not to work?

Well, Ive been thinking things through, and have failed miserably to come up with any real answers. But I have put some feelers out and some things in motion which may give me some answers eventually. Or not.

Basically, i am trying to decide what to do about work. Now I only do three days a week, it's OK - I don't much like the commuting, but the actual work is fine, and gives me a break from stuff at home. But, 3 days a week does not bring in much money - I would be better off giving up altogether! And, re-training into a difficult field like law is hard enough at my age anyway, but the chances of getting a part-time job when I am academically qualified are virtually non-existant. No-one is going to give me a training contract part-time when there a literally thousends of younger, dedicated, go-getting graduates applying for each position. And the thought of remaining a secretary for the next 30 years is not that alluring.

Plus, I have to be realistic about my home life. Aggie is doing well at the moment, but his prognosis is, at best, that he will get worse slowly, and at worst, that it will continue to deteriorate as rapidly as he did in the first year of having PA. He does his best (for a man), but barely keeps up with the needed housework & child care at the moment. And if he has a bad day/week/month, pretty much nothing is done. I am going to be needed at home at least for periods of time.

And I am starting to really think through what Mstr A's asbergers is going to mean as he gets older. I have been telling myself that he will eventually learn social skills as he gets older and understands the importance of at least pretending to understand. But, honestly, that is only going to happen many years from now. He will get a lot worse before he gets better. Most people are in their twenties before they really start to understand tolerance and true empathy. Teenagers are notoriously bad at it:-) And mstr A's behaviour is unlikely to change much. 2 year old behaviour in 2 year olds is considered normal, if annoying. 2 year old behaviour in 5 years olds is considered difficult. 2 year old behaviour in 8 year olds is considered inappropriate. 2 year old behaviour in 13 year olds is considered criminal. He is already too strong for Aggie to physically control, and the chances are is physical behaviour will get worse as he gets older and more frustrated. I worry that I am not available for him/the school.

BUT, I'm not a natural "carer". It's not a role I particularly enjoy. I prefer to work outside the home. But find it important to work hard & and act professionally at work. I can not just do the minimum possible & take time off non-stop. It's a dilemma.

We are still looking at fostering, which would give me more to do at home & a bit of money. But I'm not sure it will work out with Aggie & Mstr A.

I am also starting with the CAB in a couple of weeks, so may find that gives enough "out of the home" work.

But in that case, I have to decide what to do about college. There seems little point putting so much time, effort & money into qualifying in an occupation that I will never take up. But then again, I quite like the idea of having it as an option if things work out better.

I have decided, as usual, to just wait and see for now.

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