Self pity

I'm feeling very sorry for myself today. With no good reason, so I can't even expect sympathy from those around me:-(

I've pulled a muscle in my back, which is annoying, but hardly the end of the world. The kids have been extraordinarily boisterous today, but then they're usually pretty loud & energetic.

I've got my quarterly meeting with my line manager & co-workers tomorrow, which probably isn't putting me in a great frame of mind, but I manage to get through them every couple of months.

The house is a mess, and I spent a lot of effort tidying everything up last week. I even tidied the back room this morning, but you wouldn't know it from the state of it now. But lets be honest, my house is usually a mess.

I'm just pissed off really. Ho hum.

In other news, Mstr A had his hearing test yesterday. Surprise surprise, it came back as A OK, although I saw a poster for the National Assoc of Gifted Children while I was there which fit Mstr A's behaviour perfectly, which in it's own way is just as depressing. There's no branch anywhere near us either. I was watching him play today and he is such a typical three year old. Unfortunately he is the size of a typical five year old, and very, very physical & completely unable to comprehend the idea of personal space, or treating different ages differently (he expects LMD to react & play in the same rough & tumble way as me or Aggie), which makes him even harder to control.

I'm off to a PTA meeting at the school tonight. I'm sure nothing will really change, but at least I know what is going on in the school (a bit) by attending.

I had a lovely wekend, finding time to read the Black Magician Trilogy by Trudi Canavan. It was a good read, pretty obvious plot-lines, but well written, easy to read, and enough questions to keep me interested. It seems ages since I've had the time, energy & inclination to read properly, and I felt really rejuvenated by it. Hopefully it's the start of trend, now LMD is nearly weaned.

She's down to one feed a day now. It was hard work, but we got there. I dropped a feed a week since Xmas, but she still refuses to drink any milk out of a cup. I've tried cold, warm, cup, bottle, mug, cows milk, formula & expressed breast mil & she turns her nose up at everything. If I insist, she throws a hissy fit & chucks the drink on the floor. She certainly knows what she wants! Shame she doesn't want what she should have. I guess it's lots of yoghurts, cheese & instnat whip for her.

Oh well, time to throw them in the bath now. Hopefully I'll feel more positive tomorrow.

Oh, well, maybe the day after, thinking abaout tomorrow's meeting.