I want it all
I went back to the Dr's today to let him know the anti-biotics didn't work. My x-ray results weren't back yet, but he said that probably ment they were fine as if there had been a problem they would have got them back quicker. As I expected the to be clear anyway, I'm not too worried. He asked if I had any other symptoms, but I can't really think of any - it's just a cough. And wheezing if it gets particularly bad, so he's decided to try an inhaler for a week & see if that helps. Oh goody, another £6.00 spent by me, and I don't know how much by the NHS, just "to see" if it helps. I'm a bit torn as to the benifit of this. I do believe that part of the problem with the NHS is that people want to feel "perfect" all the time, and if they don't they want drugs, and Dr's like to feel they can fix everything, and if they can't they should give the patient drugs just to show they are trying. But then again, I don't think I should have an unresponsive cough. I'm still young, I'm reasonably fit, I don't smoke, I don't live in a particularly polluted area etc. A cough should be a fleeting annoyance to me, not an ongoing condition!
Anyway, it has been nice having the week at home with Aggie. We haven't got much done being the sickies that we are, but it's been a long time since we've had time together, just the two of us. Time to talk, discuss current events, listen to the radio and just remember what life should be like.
I like going to work, and enjoy what I do. I certainly like it better than being a stay at home mum. But I miss having time at home too. It's been nice to do things when I want to, to spend some time with my family, to cook proper meals again, and to have time to think about my life.
I guess I just want it all:-)